Thursday, March 19, 2009

I was really looking forward to posting some exciting news Tuesday afternoon after my doctor's appointment. Unfortunately, now I have some sad news.

Many of you know that I was pregnant and now it looks like I'm having a miscarriage. I am about 10 1/2 weeks but baby stopped developing a few weeks ago and yet nothing has happened. I'm waiting a few days and if nothing still then I'll go ahead with a d&c probably.

I feel really grateful for so many of you sharing your miscarriage experiences with me. I know so many others who've been through this, it makes me feel not so alone. I know that going through this will help me help others in the future... I'm grateful for my family and friends and their support. I'm also so grateful to have little Robby. He doesn't understand why mommy is so sad and I know that's hard for him but I feel so lucky to have him and just hope he'll get a sibling sometime soon.

It was so hard to not post about being excited about being pregnant - I was going to wait till after my first appointment. And now I just feel like I need to share what's going on for it to seem more real. It feels like a bad dream right now....

I'll let you know how I'm doing....

19 comments:

Nancy said...

Aw, Esther. I'm sorry to hear that. I'll keep you in my prayers and look forward to hearing some good news in the future!

You're a strong woman, Esther! I've always been impressed with your ability to handle difficult situations.

Love you lots like polka dots!

Olivia Carter said...

It was good seeing you today- please call me any stinkin' time you want- 24/7.

Charlotte said...

I'm so sorry to hear about this Esther! Let me know if there's anything I can do for you!

Rosie and Derek said...

Oh Esther I'm so sorry! I had a miscarriage a few years ago but thankfully it happened really early on. You'll be in my prayers, and let me know if you need anything-- really!

stephanie said...

I had no idea you were pregnant. What a sad day for you, I'm so sorry.

andrea. said...

esther...i am so sorry to hear this. i had NO idea that you were pregnant. please let me know if you ever need anything. whether it's someone to talk to or a babysitter for robbie...i am here for you. i will keep you in my prayers!

ps. this is andrea robertson. for some reason my blog isn't working right now so i have to sign in with another account.

Erika said...

Esther--
There really isn't anything that can be said to make your pain go away! I have been there 3 times... so I feel like I understand. But I know too that it still hurts, no matter how many stories you hear. I will pray for you. Pray a lot, hug your robbys often, cry some too, and think about what your future holds. Many hugs! Erika

kandice liljenquist said...

I am so sorry. I know how hard that is and how draining it can be. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Anonymous said...

Esther- I'm really sorry to hear this. I, too, know it is hard. I had a miscarriage right before this pregnancy and it was really hard. I hope that the pain (physically and emotionally) goes away soon for you. Let me know if there is anything I can do for you....(if you do have a d&c, I would love to bring your family dinner).

Aubrey said...

Love you, Esther! If you ever need to drop Robby off we are always home! Or if you need anything at all we are pretty much always home and just around the corner. hugs.

Warburtons said...

I am so sorry you and Rob have to go through this, you will be in my thoughts.

Eric said...

Hey Esther! We're really sorry to hear about what you are going through right now. Our thoughts and prayers are with you :)

Dayna said...

Esther-
I am so so sorry and my heart aches for you. My sister went through the very same thing (and it would have been her second as well). I can't imagine what you are going through, but know that I am thinking about you and love you. My sister found comfort in knowing that it was out of her control, and that it is very common to have a miscarriage the second go around. You'll get through this I just know it- you are so strong and amazing. Let me know if there is anything at all whatsoever I can do for ya- babysitting, make you dinner, take you out- ANYTHING!!!!!

Mann's said...

Esther---I just heard the news and wanted you to know that we love you and are here for you if you need anything!

Love you!!!

Ashlie

RS said...

So sorry Esther. Thanks for being willing to share both the good and the bad news with us. I'm hoping for the best for you. -Katie S.

Kim Goddard said...

Esther! I am so sorry! We lost 5 babies and I know how sad it is. I don't think people realize unless they have been through it themselves! Know that I am thinking about you. Wrap your arms around your shoulders and squeeze really hard for really long....now you have a hug from me! Love you!

John & Amber said...

Esther...I'm so sorry! You'll be in our prayers and let us know if there is anything we can do for you!! We love you! John and Amber

Ashley Hall said...

Esther! I know that must be hard to share, but thank you for sharing that. I had no idea that you were even pregnant. My heart aches for you. I'm so sorry. You will definitely be in my prayers. You are such an amazing, strong person. I really look up to you. Let me know if there is anything I can do.

katd said...

I am SO sorry for your loss and what you guys have gone through. Thinking of you!