wanna know a secret?

nope, still not pregnant!

I was just going to confess something dumb. So here it is: I'm kind of superstitious.

For example! If I'm feeling sick, like, have a sore throat or something, I will purposely NOT MENTION it because I think maybe if I don't say anything it will get better. Or saying something will surely make it worse! This happens a lot. Just the fact that I had just posted about Robby's x-rays being fine and his walking being ok then BOOM the NEXT DAY he has problems. I can logically tell you that I know those things are definitely not related but that little superstitious person inside of me says, "SEE!?"

One more example - for three or four days in a row Robby was taking REALLY LONG naps! I had to wake him up from some three hour naps and he slept as long as 4 1/2 hours one day too! All the while still going to bed by 8 and waking up around 8... I was so thrilled. I was afraid to voice outloud making plans around a potential long nap because I was sure if I did he would have like a 30 min nap that day. There were a few times when talking to Liv or Becca where I specifically did NOT mention it, just in case! I figured I'd test it out - not say anything and just wait till the did eventually end, which they have, and obviously NOT because I talked about it, because I didn't really. So weird..... I know.

And have I told you about the bad smile?? Grrr. It makes me so angry. I think some of my emotional response wires are crossed and so when there's bad news the response is this horribly huge smile that I can't wipe off my face. Bad smile has been coming around more and more often it seems for NO REASON!!! I'll be walking on the treadmill at the gym, listening to Liv talk about her day and all of a sudden I look like the freakin cat who swallowed the canary! "What?! What?!" She'll ask when she sees my "knowing smile". Ugh it drives me nuts. I know most of you tell me it's not a big deal and not to worry about it but I just think it's so bizzare.

(that is how the bad smile feels to me - is that about right, for those of you who know it well?)

I also think I have a problem NOT SHARING everything about my life with people! :) Oh well!